INTRODUCING:: Hixson Roy Wall

He's here!! Our baby boy finally decided to grant us with his presence!! It all started on November 29. Which was my original due date, but I guess he was measuring small at our 20 week ultrasound, and our date was pushed back to Dec. 4. I just didn't catch on I guess. Anyway, I went in to my routine 39 week appt. I was dialated to a 3 and 90% effaced. He then stripped my membranes again, (this time OUCH) and said I had a good chance of still being a week out. So discouraged I went home and basked in my misery. But then, things started happening! I started cramping, and having more painful contractions. So, I got up and walked and walked and walked. Unfortunately, nothing. So the next day, I again went for a walk. On my way back home "reggae cowboy" came on my iPod. Well it's almost impossible to not dance to that song, so I kinda started skipping. Well attempted to skip at least, in my attempt, I tripped over a dirt clod and had to stumble to keep from falling. The second I got my balance, I got the most painful contraction I'd had yet. I was bound and determined to keep things going so I kept walking. After about 3 miles it started to get dark so I headed home. At this point about every 4th contraction was painful enough I had to stop and breathe through it. When I got home, they started to slow down, so I did my best to keep moving. I put my Christmas tree and decorations up, swept, mopped, and vacuumed so much I'm surprised I still have carpet. Around midnighty contractions were about 4 minutes apart lasting about 45 seconds. So I told Eli we needed to go. Once we got to the hospital, they hooked me up to a moniters and let me sit for an hour to see if I progressed. At 2:00 am they checked and guess what?! NOTHING! I was so disappointed. So they gave me a shot of morphine and sent me home with the instructions that If the contractions got worse to come back. The morphine kicked in by the time we got to the car, and although I couldn't keep my eyes open, every 5 minutes I was woke up by a strong contraction. I tried to sleep, but it didn't work. So I got in a warm bath to try and ease the pain, still didn't work. By this time the pain was deep in my back and hips. So around 6:30 am I told Eli we had to go again. They hooked me back up and checked and I was dialated to a 4 1/2!! So they admitted me and hooked me up to more machines. Luckily, the anesthesiologist was just finishing up his shift, so he was right ready to go with my epidural. I had been so nervous about it, but I didn't feel anything, and after it kicked in, labor was a breeze! My dr came in around 9 and broke my water, and they hooked some Pitocin up to speed things up. The next time they checked I was a 6. And by 4:00 pm I was 10 and ready to push!!Hixson was born at 5:20pm and weighed 7lbs 0oz. And was 19.5 inches long. His umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck twice causing his lungs to not work properly. He was having to work too hard to breathe. I also spiked a fever during labor, causing him to have one too, so with that and his lungs, they wheeled him up to the NICU to watch him and do a procedure that opened his lungs up. I only got to hold him for about 30 seconds before they took him. Eli went with him and they took me down to see him when they transferred me to another room. Luckily around 9 he was breathing great on his own and his fever had come down, so I finally got to hold him!! And he is perfect!! The next 2 days were spent just relaxing,and visiting all my family that came to see us. We got to come home Monday dec 3, but unfortunately his billed in levels sky rocketed and we had to have lights in our house. It was the saddest thing just having to have him lay there for 5 days. Needless to say, he is now extremely spoiled and doesn't like to be put down!! I don't even care, I like snuggling with him!!

At his 2 week check up, our little chunker had gained 3 lbs and grown an inch! I can't believe he's growing so fast. I already want it to slow down.
I never knew how much a baby would change our lives. He's only been here a little over 3 weeks and I already have forgotten what life was like before him!! I never knew i could love some thing so much and I must say I love it!! Being a mommy is the most exciting, scary, exhausting, and rewarding thing I've ever done.

38 weeks.... officially ready to pop

so im sitting here... uncomfortable just praying that the next kick i get in the ribs, doesnt break it. Yes, its official. IM MISERABLE!!. Im done working, I have everything set up, organized, packed and cleaned. So now all I have left to do.....is wait. MY weekly appts have become the highlight of my week... and for those who has been checked, and know how not fun that really is.... you see how bored i am!! At my last appt, I was 2 cm dialated, and about 25% effaced. PRogress!!!! This wednesday their stripping my membranes just to jump start things. The Dr. said if the baby is ready, labor could start within 48 hours of stripping them. EEEK!! Which means if everything goes how i pray (but dont plan on).. I could spent thanksgiving in labor!! but lets not get ahead of ourselves... my body does nothing fast so chances are, Ill see the month of November come and go and still have no baby!!!! mmm

 

How far along: 38 weeks!!

 

Total weight gain: I honestly can't say... i stopped looking at the scale weeks ago... all i know is the Dr. says im still on the low side of normal.

 

Maternity clothes: you know your ready to be done... when your sweats are getting tight (due to babys position, not my weight)

 

Stretch marks: nope!! Unfortuanley... I developed some clear up high on the back of my thighs.... depressing thought- "my thighs have expanded enough to get stretch marks?" But still none on my stomach!!

 

Sleep: what is sleep?? I dont get any anymore... except during the day when i just pass out from lack of!

 

Best moment of this week: being done with work, and my dr. appt hopefully gets things going!!

 

Miss anything: going to a store and not having a stranger touch my stomach or want to know my whole life story.

 

Movement: hes become a violent little one!!

 

Food Cravings: if its food... ill eat it.

 

Anything make you queasy or sick: not anymore...

 

Labor signs: Im dialated, and effaced... and contractions are muchmore painful and frequent.

 

Belly button, in or out: just flat.

 

Wedding rings, on or off: i dont remember what it looks like!! jk

 

Happy or Moody most of the time: im not nice... my poor husband is a trooper.

33 weeks!!! So close, yet so far!

All I keep telling myself is 7 more weeks!!! Haha ok truthfully it has not been too bad. Plus,after I lost our last baby I swore I'd never whine about pregnancy. But the truth is....I'm SO ready to be done and have my little man here!! I feel like I look like an old dairy cow lately, and the waddle has become inevitable. Plus the night time restless legs, aching hips, and extremely painful round ligament stretching pains... Other than all that, life is great!! Haha one good thing... Baby boy is constantly moving, and though at times he hits very uncomfortable areas...it's a happy feeling knowing he's still in there. I actually think he's getting sick of it in there too, sometimes he completely freaks out like he's looking for a way out ( can't say I blame him)...maybe that means he wants to appear a little early??? A mommy can dream right? 7 more weeks...7 more weeks 7 more.....

 

How far along: 33 weeks!!

 

Total weight gain: dare I say??? Ok 19 pounds yikes!

 

Maternity clothes: pants wise, I still wear normal jeans just keep them unbuttoned and use my wonderful belly band. Shirts: I just need longer than normal but the belly band solves that too!!

 

Stretch marks: nope!! My doctor told me I was breaking federal law by not having them... O well, lock me up then! Wait I lied, my boobs have a few stretch marks... But those babies blew up fast!!

 

Sleep: sleeping is difficult, either I can't breathe, or my hips ache or I flat out cant get comfortable!!

 

Best moment of this week: well nothing to exciting, just getting his room together!!

 

Miss anything: I miss bending over, sleeping on my back or stomach and my old clothes Movement: all day everyday!!

 

Food Cravings: chocolate milk....mmm

 

Anything make you queasy or sick: not anymore...

 

Gender: it's a sweet little boy!!

 

Labor signs: I get Braxton hicks a lot but nothing to serious

 

Symptoms: well all the symptoms are gone...just serious physical proof now!!

 

Belly button, in or out: still in... Definitely flattening out though

 

Wedding rings, on or off: off for a month or so now...I miss it

 

Happy or Moody most of the time: im usually happy...but sometimes I snap and can't stop it even though I know I'm being crazy.and o man I'm a boob now.

 

Looking forward to: Being done and holding my little guy finally!!!

Time to seriously catch up!!!

ok so since i havent blogged since February.... im afraid I have a lot to catch up on. So lets see ill go Month by month!!

 

MARCH:

 

Well we found out we are expecting again! Wahoo!!! I was seriously terrified since last time didnt go so well. But everything has been great!!! I got sick only a few times, and most of the time felt great.

 

Eli started a new job. He is now a towerhand with a company called Rocky Mountain Wireless Telecom.... basically he climbs cell phone towers and fixes them. I think hes a freak personally because these towers average 300 ft tall. But he absolutely loves it. He is gone a lot, since most of the jobs are out of state, but having a job he enjoys so much has been such a blessing.

if you look close you can see him right at the top!!! freaky!!

 

APRIL:

 

not too much happened this month... or that i can remember... I know we had our first baby doctor appt and I was so nervous. The nurse taking my blood pressure actually told me to calm down!! haha but they did an ultrasound and saw that everything was perfect, baby had a strong heartbeat and was measuring a week bigger than what we had thought!!! Making our due date November 29!

this was our little one at 10 weeks exactly!!

 

MAY

 

To be honest this was probly the most boring month.. Eli was gone 90% of it. Although we did celebrate our 1 year anniversary!! From different states! But oh well we'll have many more anniversaries to celebrate!!

 

JUNE:

 

This month was the most exciting... 1st of all it was Eli's birthday!! Which he celebrated alone :( I felt like the worst wife in the history of wives. But he didnt seem to care, because when he came home... his birthday present was to find out that......

ITS A BOY!!!!! We both were so sure that it was a girl... but there was no question, cuz he was not being shy!! and we are so excited!!! Little boys are so fun!!

This was just a picture of him. he was sucking his thumb (so cute) then took it out right when they snapped the picture!! But this may be biased.... but im pretty sure i have to cutest ultrasound baby picture out there!!

 

JULY:

 

This month, I had my birthday... Eli was gone again! haha surprise! luckily i really dont care about my birthdays.. there just another day to me! we also had our 20 week ultrasound, although i was almost 22 weeks at the time... ( i had to reschedule due to work) everything is still looking perfect!! It was so fun seeing everything. The heart, the brain, the arms, legs, spine, i even saw him hiccup.. and found out hes still a boy!! and from the look of things, "Get your hands outta your pants" is gonna be a commonly used phrase!! He was playing with himself the whole time!! I was so embarrassed! but boys will be boys!!

Heres another adorable picture of his perfect little face. (total mom right??) Plus I finally felt the little man move this month... wierdest feeling ever.. but i love it. Now i know he's ok in there since he wont stop moving!!!

 

August

 

this month was fun because me and Eli got our own place!! We'd been living in Nephi with his mom for a few months, but decided there wasnt enough room there for the baby and it was time for us to get our own place. So now were living in Santaquin. I love it. Our neighbors are super nice. And it just has the small town feel. Im still decorating but ill put pictures up when its finally done. The little guy (were still thinking of names) really started moving this month too. but hes running out of room, so now i get jabs and kicks. and instead of little flutters, it actually hurts! My stomach at points has bulges, his favorite position these days is butt out!! And i gotta say, kicks to the bladder are exciting.. you dont even know you have to pee, then boom! Oh the joys..... ITS SO WORTH IT!!!

BaCk To ReAlItY

So i realized i had kind of checked myself out of the blogging world for a little while... I need to catch up!!

Well the first thing I guess i forgot is my Dear Amanda Jo left us for a whole year to go nanny in New York! So happy for her, but man do I miss her and her sarcasm. She left January 7, at 11:20 PM. Worst part is she had never flown before.. ever! So ared eye to a foreign land, all alone, the first time flying. What an adventure!! Before she left she had wrote us all individual letters. I waited til the car ride home to read mine.... lets just say, I was dehydrated after that night!! She sent us all a text at about 4 am saying she had landed.... and as far as I know shes loving it! I am just praying she doenst end up staying out there forever.... although itd make a good reason for a vaca!!!!
Second on my list.....
Look Out Fresno, California. Elder Christopher Jay Hortin is coming to town!!! He got set apart January 31. The whole family went down to his house and just hung out til like 930. I never wanted to leave, But he looked so cute in his suit and tie and name tag. So i gutted it up, and hugged him goodbye. Then went directly home and wrote him a letter that i sent the next day.. haha I had some things i needed to tell him, that I most likely wouldnt have been able to say out loud without crying. So i wrote it. Basically, Just how much i loved him, how much I look up to him, and how proud of him I am. Hes been a little brother to me. The little Brother i never wanted... so God gave him to me in a cousin form. haha and I am so blessed to have him in my life.

Now its time for the big time tourneys in wrestling. As you most know, at Wasatch, wrestling is a way of life. The Hortin family is no different!! Youll never see a tournament or dual that were not at. You'll actually probly hear us before you see us, but hey its what makes it fun. PArker is doing so well this year. I still can't believe how much hes grown. I still think of him as my short little friend. but no, hes a full on man, with a deep voice and huge muscles.

and lastly but definately not least, me and eli have decided to start taking Temple classes. With everything that has happened the last few months, theres no way we would have made it with our sanity without God's help. He does so much for us, and we want to do everything we can to continue to get His blessings. Im hoping to get married in the Temple December 26, 2012. ( the 2nd anniversary of when we got engaged) so Pray for us!!

Our Angel

So in a flood of emotions I erased our post about our baby news, now I wish I hadnt.

I feel like this is a post more for me... I need to talk about what happened, and its still hard for me to talk about it without tearing up so...this is me talking.

I found out we were expecting October 5th. We were so excited!! I couldnt wait get a baby bump, to start shopping,all the fun stuff that comes with having a baby. I had been having the worlds easiest pregnancy (or so I thought). Until thanksgiving day. I noticed some light light spotting, everyone I talked to said it was perfectly normal. So I tried to not worry. But I just had a bad feeling. The following Saturday, the spotting turned into bleeding, and I knew something was wrong. I called my doctor, he was on his way home from the airport from a trip to Africa. The sweet man he is, didnt even stop at home and met me at his office. He only had a mini ultrasound machine at the office, he could see my littke maggot, but said it was no where the size it should be. So he called the hospital and set up an ultrasound. I was always so excited to have one of those, but this time, the cold dark room felt.more like a dungeon. As the tech was pushing and twisting the little remote thing, I couldnt even look at the screen. I didnt wanna know, because I already knew.
After what felt like an eternity in that dungeon, we finally could go home. They would let the radiologist read the ultrasound and then my doctor would call me with the results. We hadnt even made it out of the parking lot when the call came in. The baby's heart had stopped beating almost 4 weeks before.
He said that I would experience some heavy bleeding and extreme cramping, but what I had in my mind and what it was really, so not the same. I have a very high threshold of pain. But I have never in my life felt pain like this. These "cramps" had me shaking and holding my breath every 2 minutes. I just laid there thinking I was dying, praying my dad would drive faster to give me a blessing. Finally, he made it home. Hed already called my cousin Chris to come help him. The second I saw Chris, I started crying even harder. That boy has saved me more than once, and here he was to do it again. I honestly cannot remember what was said in this blessing, but I do remember my dad asking for my pain to subside. Immediately, the pain was gone. So even though I was a firm believer before, I now am positive there is someone up there watching out for us.
The next Tuesday, I had a dnc surgery, and i finally started feeling better physically. Emotionally, I dont know if I'll ever completely recover. As much as people tell me it wasnt my fault, and as much as I know it wasnt. For the rest of my life Ill always wonder, what if i didnt do that? Would my baby be here today?
I am so thankful for the support and love my Dear husband gave me through all this. He had a hard time as well, but was always put me first. I know hes going to be the best daddy any child could ever ask for. So once we get our medical bills paid down a bit were going to start trying again. This baby was unexpected, but now its almost needed. But until it comes, we got one more angel looking out for us :)